see for yourself.

Yes, i"m obsessed with the great American heartthrob. it's extremely cliche and immature and pathetic and i know it. but seriously, look at that. it's not normal for someone to look like this.hjgshdfghjsdbgn.

i love black and white.

 FAV.

 MARILYN. <3

Marilyn Monroe and James Dean. i need this on a poster...

Free People.

most inspirational vintage clothing line of my life. although way out of my price limit, it's fun to look at this stuff and wish and dream i could put these types of brilliant outfits together.

http://www.freepeople.com/

the cutest, most brilliant thing i've ever seen in my life.

okay so i guess the new, trendy, hip thing to do in this ever-growing technical world is to make a video for engagement save the dates. if done correctly and professionally, as down below, it's glorious. although i can see how this would be super uber tacky and just not good as well.. yeah, check it out.
http://vimeo.com/15796763

here's another one. i promise i'm not obsessed with stalking random cheesy wedding videos.. i just ran into a bunch and they enlighten my life.
http://vimeo.com/15855783

while i'm at it, i'll just include more lovey-dovey cheezy bridal stuff. this is my all time favorite engagment shoot. i would never ever do anything like this, for it would be terribly cheezy and embarrassing to send out pictures like this to announce an engagement... but the overall theme here is just wonderful. and the guy is.. freakin attractive. oh and i hate chickens.
http://greenweddingshoes.com/love-down-on-the-farm/

The life-changing hair product line of the 21st century.

I'm not even kidding, i could bear my testimony on this. I don't know how people create this kind of brilliance, but i am a firm believer that it needs to be shared with the world. and just so everyone knows, i get all of this stuff at a highly discounted price... so if you decide to try the brilliance, lemme know.
http://www.moroccanoilproducts.com/

It's not like i sit on google images and stalk celebs to see their outfit brilliance or anything... geez.

okay so check this out. i have truely been inspired, once again, by google images.

dear vanessa.. you annoy me. but i have to admit, you dress very very nice and your hair is glorious. and you dated zac efron. and you were in a movie with that alex pettyfer. that therefore cancels out my annoyance for you. look at her outfits... OMG.

lauren conrad. personally, i think she's over rated. she's cute. she has nice hair. but why is she famous again? she doesn't act, she doesn't sing, oh yeahh... she was in some reality tv shows. but ill admit, i like her. i love the hills... yeah. she dresses pretty good. not well enough to write books on fashionthough... alll first 3 seasons of the hills, what did she wear? rolled up capri's, black pointy toed heels, a plain tank top, and an ugly headband scarf. no joke. for me, i think her outfits are just typical... ya know? simple. i like more not so matchy, pattern mixing, out of the box. not too much, just more than dear LC here.

aww vanessa, you did it again.

Audrina- i love you. LC's outfit here, i like. a lot.

here's the real fashion outfit jem. Jessica Alba. she's not really known for her style... but i love it.

look at that. ADORABLE.

<3

see this is more of the stuff i like. the vintage mixed with the trendy. i just am in love with it.

brilliance.

so this summer is consisting of what i like to call, productive healthy laziness. that pretty much means making no effort whatsoever to look even decently attractive with the assistance of makeup/hair products/socially acceptable clothing. oh and also sitting at home doing nothing, sleeping definitely longer than is needful, watching tv shows andgoing through stupid chick flicks. oh and most importantly, facebook stalking the people i used to hang out to somewhat remain the normal social teenage society. oh and texting attractive males. even though i hate texting.. whatevs. but anyways, back to the productive healthy part of my summer. i'm on an intense exercise plan. every other day, 30 minutes of crazy hard gunnar peterson work out videos. that's what's up. then i jog like, a whole mile on the treadmill. on a good day.. irrrelevent. and then i follow that glorious procedure with 45-60 minutes of intense backyard tanning. (this time varies on how much heat edurance/sweat soaking i can endure). now you're probly thinking, this is brilliant, Heidi's finally going somewhere with her life, why doesn't she do this every day? because. then i would have to wash my hair everyday. which would mean i would go through glorious hair reconstructive, medicated, expensive shampoos and conditioners twice as fast. not okay. and i'm not made of money. and i'm not. i repeat, NOT. getting a job. i'm not working at some nasty fast food place. or bagging groceries at wakmart like my mother wants me to do. no mother. my wise cousin put this best, "i don't dooo walmart." and i especially dont work walmart. nooo. because i'll go back to this, i'm lazy. and not just that, i dont want to work somewhere embarrassing where people i know will see me. i just cant do that. oh but back to my summer laziness plan thing, i had 2 dates yesterday. crazy right? another thing about me. i hate dating... i hate dates. the dating scene is not my thing. please not that i didn't say the boy scene, i said the dating scene. it just stresses me out. too much pressure to keep up conversation and say the right thing and be social but not annoying and look decent but not looking like you tried too hard, ya know? it's just stressful. but yeah, 2 dates on saturday. i've only had like maybe 5 in my entire life.. i cannot physically or emotionally handle 2 in one day. to make matters worse, because of my summer plan, i havent gotten ready in roughly 1-2 weeks. so i forgot how to do it.. like, how do correctly apply mascara? i dont even remember. does this outfit look homely? i just really dont know. it was seriously the worst experience of my life. keep in mind for those 1-2 weeks i've done litterally nothing. and i loved it. but you loose the touch after a while, it really happens. now i understand why when people get married and have kids they loose the touch. i dont blame them, i lost it after a week. i cant even imagine actually having a busy, productive life... it's just crazy. my mom thinks people think i'm a materialistic snob when they read this and my facebook. guess what mom. #1 no one reads my blog #2 i dont care. #3 it's not my fault i have nothing else to talk about it becides clothes and hair. and hatin on stupid girls on fb.. but to prove i'm going somewhere with my life, i'm going to say this. i took ACT yesterday. aren't you proud? and i think i did kind of almost okay on it. there ya go.

i've learned i need to focus more on driving...

hopefully driving school, a ticket, no more car and being grounded for life will help me decide when to turn and when to yield.

I definitely wont be married by the time i'm 35 if i keep wearing ugly red dresses like this one.

this is Gunnar Treck Norton... :)

Hair Experimentationss.

I had the wonderful opportunity of doing people's hair for prom. that i am not attending might i add. so this an updo attempt... not sure if im diggin it but you know, whatever. too late now. and earlier that day i got to bleach a majorly discolored brown/red. and then put a fire engine red on it. which turned hot pink. yeah that was interesting... so she came back this morning and put a darker red on it, bringing it to a purpley bright red that actually looks pretty good. fun times.

HAIR BLEACH IS OF THE DEVIL.

fries your hair. end of story. it doesnt even matter how thick and wonderful your hair is, slap some 30 volume bleach on it for a half hour every couple months and all the sudden it's breaking off and disinegrating all over the place. it's ruining lives all over the place. including mine and i havent bleached it for 8 months.

living a pro-active lifestyle

my insane male cosmo teacher always uses the word "proactive" in his speeches about how if everyone on earth picked up one piece of trash then we could prevent global warming or something of that sort. there's 2 problems with these weekly speeches i think. #1 you're here to teach us how to cut hair, not to share your opinions with saving the planet. #2, maybe im stupid but is proactive really the best word choice there? i dunno... but he uses it wayy too much. let's keep in mind this is a 5 foot 5inch, size 5 foot in womens footwear man in his 50's who tucks cargo pants in with a white button up shirt (if you can consider a shirt buttoned up when the top 5 are open revealing a nasty tan chest covered with gray hair and a gold chain necklace with an eagle on). Then he has, of all possible choices, a rose tatooed on his shoulder, reveled when he wears a tee shirt with the sleeves rolled up like girls like to do in 8th grade when they think they are too cute to wear a regular tee shirt. whateverr... and then to top it all off, he's teaching a class of 40 stupid crack whore girls how to cut and color hair. because apparently he's the expert because he worked for nioxin for 15 years and traveled to france for hair shows with loreal. well guys.. let me tell you something. he is wayyy too full of himself, he is not that swell. the problem with guy hairstylists is places hire them because they are rare and assumed to be better than girls. well most of them are not... how would they know how to healthily care for long hair? have they ever had long chemically processed hair? yeah i doubt it. sure, they can style it for an hour, but they aren't going to be there when it gets way too overproccessed and it starts falling off. dumbb... well anyways, i decided that i need to start living a healthier lifestyle. because when im old and married and what not, i want to already have a healthy habit lifestyle so i can live a long time and not be extremely overweight. therefore, im now starting a schedule to living a proactive, healthy lifestyle. this includes the following:

-getting home from evit at 4;30, lay out tanning for 30-45 minutes while i do my homework

-15 minutes treadmill walk/jog

-30 toning cardio workout video complete with a cool down muscle strengthening course.

-shower then let my morroccan oil deep hyddrating mask sit for 20 minutes while i once again do my homework.

BOOM. that's it. it's gonna be glorious.

MLIA

my life is awkward, not average. like to outrageous amounts. like for some reason, every day in 1st hour my eyelashes start to stick together real bad every time i blink, (ya know that feeling? it's freakin annoying) and for some reason no one talks in that class. it's seriously dead silent except for me and Lisa who sits next to me... we talk the whole hour. mostly gossip about people.. what? yeah anyways, it's just terrible when people catch you doing something stupid. like pulling the sock that slipped down in your gorgeous new light brown leather steve madden boots and your hand gets stuck while your bent down with your head under your desk... or when your using the eyelash curler in class that you borrowed from lisa and you look up to see like 5 people giving you super weird looks. or when you ask your anatomy teacher if there's such a thing as concentrated water and she answers with a disguised way to say it's a stupid question. guess what? it made sense to me! or like when you wear these super cute juicy capri's your dad got you for your birthday that are super tight in the leg area but really big in the waist and you dont realize til you get home from school that you tucked your pink ruffly shirt into your black lacy underwear that was made visable due to the oversized waist band of the pants. not like that has ever happened to me. because it definitely hasn't. or when you wear a really see through white dress to school the day its raining and freezing. with freakin black underwear again... but again, that's never happened, it was definitely a semi hypethetical situation. or when you see this girlfrom junior high and say hi to her and she looks at you like you're insane... note to the world: if this happens you just stop talking and walk away, dont call her by her first name and stick around long enough for her to ask how she knows you. because then you start rambling on about how you had 3 classes together in 8th grade. but then.. you realize you never actually talked to this girl, you just stalked her because she was super cute and her boyfriend was hot. once again, none of this has ever happened to me. the end.

Antique stores in Mesa?

So the only reason i go up to show low is for the amazing thrift and antique stores. recently one of my EVIT friends shared with me that there's this antique store in VF factory outlet like 5 mins from my house. so of course i have to check it out! well.... turns out mesa antique stores are just not as good as others. they just had basic stuff. but it was cheapppp! and it really inspired my life. picture this. 5 years. my kitchen. painted light yellow. with wonderful old coke bottles on the window sill above the sink with fun flowers in them. and wonderful old signs from the 40's hanging on the walls. and there was this amazing couch... oh my gosh. wonderful. i'm trying to think of what they are called.... like. a couch with no back and only one arm? beautiful pattern, so old looking it was amazing. like this was probly the most beautiful couch i have ever seen in my life. 300 dollars. now maybe i'm just not experiences in furniture shopping yet, but isn't that pretty good?! that would look great in my future house. and i want a vintage old ugly door. i just have to have one! and there was this bed.... the gorgeous white old looking ones like my grandma has. my cousin has this white bed with like poles coming out the top of it. and my aunt draped this fabric from it so it looks so perfect and princess-y. wow i really need to learn the home decor language!

current addicitons.

ONE TREE HILL. i love it. my dear friend Kacie got me hooked on it. seasons 1-6 of course, the current ones are horribly embarrassing pathetic. i am seriously so obsessed it's not healthy. i would rather stay home and watch this than go out with people on weekends. and if i do end up leaving on weekends, all i think about is relating the current situation about a one tree hilll episode. warning: if you are inspired by me sharing this with you, let me tell you now, nathan scott (left) is gorgeous and addicting beyond belief. oh and another warning, some of these epsidoes get a little riskay like a lot of tv shows these days... that's why you watch online so you can fast foward. haha

my mom would say im shallow, my friends would say im materialistic. but i'm sorry, i love hair products. anyone in this world who hasn't tried moroccan oil, definitely needs to try it. quick story: i used to have fried dry terrible hair. then my dear hair lady tanya inroduced me to moroccan oil's miracle oil treatment. wonderful. then i discovered the shampoo and conditioner. WONDERFUL. i now have somewhat healthier, thicker, fuller, softer, less breakable, wonderful smelling hair and i am a lot happier with my life. is that shallow of me to say? i just thought i would share with the world. so maybe their lives can be inspired as mine has been haha

i don't care what they say, i'm in love with you.

first of all, I am definitely nnot in love or obsessed with Justin Bieber in any way. I just used that for the post title because it's the lyrics from the song Bleeding Love.... just to clear the air on that. but seriously, people contastntly make fun of him and i just dont think it's right. I mean look at him. He's a beautiful man. His eyebrows are kind of too dark for his hair... But he does not look like he's 12. keep in mind, he just turned 17. Cut the kid some slack. people are just used to seeing Zac Efron in HSM who's like 22 and supposed to look like he's 16. In reality, Justin Bieber looks his age. I have friends his age who look younger than him, like seriously. I do think it's kind of weird how he has a thing with Selena though.... She's 18 and a half. ehh kind of odd if you ask me.

welllll.....

So today was going somewhat typical. I get home from Evit and think to myself, "let's be rational here Heidi. You were ungrounded this weekend. You pretty much have your own car, 10 bucks in your wallet, a closet full of clothing you have all already worn but there has to be some possibilities left, and you just got your hair done so it looks almost somewhat better than it's usual nastiness. it's 6:30 on a saturday evening and what did you decide to do with your life? stay home and stream netflix movies. by yourself. in sweat pants. wallowing about how depressing your life is" now usually, people would throughly enjoy this and find it relaxing/rejuvinating/ a time for self reflection . but you see... i haven't had a decent social life in quite some time. therefore i just dont really enjoy it anymore. it goes in a circle, i'm so depressed about my lack of social life that i decide to do nothing about it, therefore further contributing to my lack of social life which leads to more self pity. and self pitty is never good. isn't that against one of the commandments? i'm just not really sure. i have this problem when it comes to listening in church... i zone out and start thinking about wedding planning and how if that lady in front of me just used a little root lifter and blow dried with an oversized round brush, her hair would tease so much better so it wouldn't be flat and ratted and she would just be a much happier person. and clothes... i think about clothes a lot. and home decor. and then the nice lady behind us chases her little kid out of the door and i'm brought back to reality for a second so i catch maybe 10 seconds at the most of what the speaker is saying about food storage. but then.. i think about that lady out in the hall with her adorable little girl. and how rosie and lucy are such cute girl names. and how i want to name my sons hudson braxton stanton and bently because, lets get real now, how could a guy have a name like that and not be precious and attractive? so of course i need to bless my child by using one of those names, they will thank me in the long run. and then i'm again brought back to reailty for a second when i realize i have been staring at my sister's hair. oh, the speaker has moved on to tithing and how it blesses people's lives. then i think about how i could cut my sister's hair so it had more natural wave to it. do you see the minutely struggle i have to deal with in my head? there's just so many things to think about! i seriously need medication. it's not just church, school is pretty bad too. how could i possibly listen to a lesson about the endocrine system when there's a girl wearing hot pink plush cat ears a matching tail 2 rows in front of me. and that's no exageration, there are people who dress like that. then i have to think through all of the possibilties of what could be going on in her family life that makes her so inseccure about herself that she feels the need to throw herself out there in the world and wear something like that. some would say it's mean to make assumptions like that, but then again i dont want to just assume she's a total weirdo without a decent cause behind it, ya know? i decided i'm just a people watcher. i just really enjoy to watch people in the store or in their cars waiting for the light to turn red. and then they see me looking at them and get creeped out. and it's awkward because how am i supposed to explain to them that i have a strange dissorder called mindless wanderation syndrome that causes me to loose focus after 10 seconds and have temporary memory loss of reality and makes me stare at people without trying to? it's just way too complicated. where was i going with this.... oh yeah. netflix. so i get home from school today, just minding my own buisness, just simply wanting to watch a WW 2 drama romance movie or a dumb hilary duff comedy... but guess what. that's when this terrible little window showed up on the screen. "you have reached the maximum limit of streaming hours for the month." well just shoot me now, stupiud netflix.

my new obsessions.

my new obsessions: #1 black and white photography. anything black and white i just adore. but then i also really like the older pictures... jackie kennedy, marilyn monroe, history stuff. im just kind of in love. jackie kennedy. wa-bam. i love her.

i LOVE this picture.
and this one's kind of sad... but i have always liked it. haha and my mom is always saying people are going to think im stuck up and materialistic because i only post clothes and such on my blog and all my FB statuses are about hair.. ya know what, hair and clothes are the only thing going somewhat decent in my life right now. but yeah, back to what i was saying, i have been thinking i might possibly take history classes in college. not american history or early world history that's all about ancient greece or whatever... i dont care about that. i want like, marilyn monroe world war 1 and 2, great depression, free love hippie history. ya know? do they have a major for that? i know you can be a fashion history major... where you like study the trends of the past and what not. but i couldn't do that, my mom would think it's too materialistic.

this reminds me of one of those movies that takes place during WW 2/ great depression... which i also love. a movie that takes place anywhere from 1900-1960, i just seriously love it.

why do i liek this one so much? yeah i dont even know.

obsession #2: katie holmes. look how freakin adorable she is! in one tree hill, season 5.. haley chops off her hair and goes really dark like this. that's what im doing when i'm old. it's so classy...

i am litterally OBSESSED with this picture. i loveee every single thing about it. the colors she's wearing, her messy side bun, how white she is (but she just works it, ya know?) her shoes, her face... even her turtle neck. i LOVE it.

first of all. look how cute her outfit is. yeahh. she makes me want to crop boyfriend jeans, wear flats with it, button a white cardigan at the top, put a cute scarf with it and chop off my hair. (ps the full sized picture shows her cropped jeans witth flats, i didnt just make that up.)

so cute.

her hair gives me hope for mine in the future.